Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Reality Check!

The way I see it, I am rooted in reality. I didn't used to be. I used to live in a world where I was on the path I was expected to be on and it was good. Where I had the time and determination to think about everything I did in terms of what it meant to me and others, but almost in a pretentious way. I have been thinking about my life and my goals recently and have determined that there are two ways for me to view my life as it is now.

Side One:

  • I am 23 and don't even have my Bachelor's yet
  • I can't even afford to be in school right now
  • I'm single and suck at this whole "dating" thing
  • Why would anyone want to be in a relationship with someone like me, anyway?
  • I'm in a job that I don't really want making less money than I should
  • I don't have the time or money to travel or visit people
  • I can't seem to finish any major tasks I set myself
  • My goals in life are lame
Side Two:
  • I am 23 and have already earned full benefits at my full-time job
  • My full-time position is very secure, even in this economic climate
  • The University system is pretty effed up right now and costs more for less, so it's a good time to be out
  • I lived in Scotland for 4 months. 'Nuff said.
  • My job is on the path to my ultimate career goal
  • I am gaining valuable work-experience that will give me an edge on any future job competition
  • I am happy.
  • My life goals may not be exciting for other people, but they give me a sense of fulfillment when I accomplish one
  • I am a unique individual who is unafraid of being herself
  • I have an amazing family
  • I have amazing friends both close and far away
  • I receive constant love and support from said family and friends
  • I am happy (yes, that one is important enough to list twice)
So, yes. I am not on exactly the path that is expected of me, but I feel like I'm taking a scenic detour right now. When I get my degree at long last and go after the jobs I want, I am going to have a serious edge on my competition. I have experience. Much of my competition will be fresh out of University and have only ever worked in a coffee shop. I still consider my actions and how they affect myself as well as those around me, but it has become less about being intellectual and more about being considerate and giving.

I prefer Side Two. Sometimes I slip into a Side One mindset, but I don't let it last long. Who would want to? So yes, I am still realistic, but I just choose to see the ways in which things can be positive.


  1. DUDE. Side Two all the way. I'm a 28 year old getting her second bachelor's degree. I won't even be an interior designer until I'm *gasp* in my THIRTIES.
    But you know what? Everything that I have done up until this point has been amazing and awesome and I love having the experiences under my belt.
    I love you, and you will ALWAYS have my undying support. Especially for moving to Pittsburgh. ;)

  2. I drank two Rockstars last night and if course the only thing to do with all that energy is read all of the lovely Dinah's blog posts. I miss you so much! I have enjoyed learning more about you, especially stuff from before we met. Side Two is the right side. Happiness beats all else. I think that as long as you're happy than life is on the right track. <3