Reality Check!

The way I see it, I am rooted in reality. I didn't used to be. I used to live in a world where I was on the path I was expected to be on and it was good. Where I had the time and determination to think about everything I did in terms of what it meant to me and others, but almost in a pretentious way. I have been thinking about my life and my goals recently and have determined that there are two ways for me to view my life as it is now.

Side One:

• I am 23 and don't even have my Bachelor's yet
• I can't even afford to be in school right now
  
• I'm single and suck at this whole "dating" thing
• Why would anyone want to be in a relationship with someone like me, anyway?
  
• I'm in a job that I don't really want making less money than I should
• I don't have the time or money to travel or visit people
• I can't seem to finish any major tasks I set myself
• My goals in life are lame

Side Two:

• I am 23 and have already earned full benefits at my full-time job
• My full-time position is very secure, even in this economic climate
• The University system is pretty effed up right now and costs more for less, so it's a good time to be out
• I lived in Scotland for 4 months. 'Nuff said.
• My job is on the path to my ultimate career goal
• I am gaining valuable work-experience that will give me an edge on any future job competition
  
• I am happy.
• My life goals may not be exciting for other people, but they give me a sense of fulfillment when I accomplish one
• I am a unique individual who is unafraid of being herself
  
• I have an amazing family
• I have amazing friends both close and far away
• I receive constant love and support from said family and friends
• I am happy (yes, that one is important enough to list twice)

So, yes. I am not on exactly the path that is expected of me, but I feel like I'm taking a scenic detour right now. When I get my degree at long last and go after the jobs I want, I am going to have a serious edge on my competition. I have experience. Much of my competition will be fresh out of University and have only ever worked in a coffee shop. I still consider my actions and how they affect myself as well as those around me, but it has become less about being intellectual and more about being considerate and giving.

I prefer Side Two. Sometimes I slip into a Side One mindset, but I don't let it last long. Who would want to? So yes, I am still realistic, but I just choose to see the ways in which things can be positive.